Work avoiding again

Managed to sleep. Luke this morning.. hydro.. lots of texting Em in the car. Very very sad today. Gutted and feel let down by God. Struggling to keep faith. Walked to town to book a sight test and choose frames. Went to Tessa's for the autism course. Didn't manage to do anything cos I was crying to much. Talking about change and control and stuff was just too painful. Cried all the way home. Curled up under my Spidey blanky and cried some more. Slept a bit while watching Order of the Phoenix. Wonder if God was talking to me at the end. Have just been faffing on PC and Mac since. Editing graduation photos. Wishing I could go back to yesterday.